oh today...

so i walked out to my car to get midol out of the mercury sable glove box and i locked my keys in my car lol. when i came back inside laughing at myself, Tracy comforted me by telling me about the time she not only locked her keys in the car but her 18 month old baby girl as well. she said the window was cracked just enough so that she could try and teach Hannah to unbuckle her car seat and unlock the car door. it didn't work. im happy i at least got the midol i originally went out there for.

gross...you should see my nails right now. they are horribly bitten! my cuticles are grown out in awkward lengths and my nails are down to the bare minimum. ive had so much caffeine today in order to wake my butt up for work at 8am so the nail biting is incredibly worse today.

i just looked outside and remembered i ripped my passenger side mirror off by running into the garage. i haven't told anyone but tracy and linda. im trying to avoid the lecture entitled, "you don't take care of your car." my parents are right i don't. the worst part is that my Grandmother, who just died two months ago gave me that car. she was the coolest women ever! i love her but im stupid and haven't taken good care of the car she gave me.

GEOPHAGY

it's the craving and the act of eating mud or dirt.
i crave mud! i always have. maybe it's freaky but i just looked it up online and apparently there is a term for it because other people crave the same. who knew!
i brought it up to Linda because i was telling her how hard it was for me to not eat the mud in my sister's backyard while we were planting flowers the other weekend. when i was little i was famous for my delicious mud pies. when i was planting, the smell hit me and reminded me how good mud tastes to me. Linda and i started talking about if mud was all that bad for the human body. i looked it up and according to an article back in 2005 (not a very good source) lots of people crave mud.. a lot of pregnant women actually (don't' get scared, i always crave mud) and nutritionist say mud may help to draw out toxins. i was just happy to hear other people have the same childish cravings as myself.
maybe we're suppose to eat mud but society forces children to stop at an early age? like forcing boys to wear blue and girls to wear pink and play with Barbies. whatever

A Hint of Sparkle on My Scarf

i feel so tired today and i have no reason to be. yesterday's kickball game was an absolute blast. i hardly play sports anymore and i forgot how competitive i am. i was screaming, jumping up in the air and coaching my blond head off! Logan and i hardly talk but anytime we have an ignite activity i feel as though we bond through our competitiveness without saying a word to each other. The ball we used to play was one of those giant Boise workout balls people use to work their abs. i laughed so hard each time one of the kicks got called out because someone nailed them in the butt or face or back of the head with that huge ball!

So today i decided to go with the trendy scarf and matching purple shoes. at unm girls always rock the t-shirt with a scarf, just kind of thrown around their neck. so i thought id try it one more time. my madre said it looks cute but i sort of think im not "indie" enough to pull it off. however, i do feel like im entitled to try seeing as how everyone i hang out with has "indie" tendencies.

Playing Catch-up

I just want to say, "Thank you God for giving me and entire week to play catch-up with school!!"

I needed this study week so so Soo bad!

I feel extremely organized and I do not feel rushed at all! I wrote down my entire list of things needed to be done this week and I'm going one by one checking them off!

subject change!

Part of my great organization this week is to organize my priorities! #1 needs to be God again and now he is! As of Saturday night i feel sane again :)

Here's a Bible verse(s) for the day...

2 Timothy 2: 14 Keep reminding them of these things. Warn them before God against quarreling about words; it is of no value, and only ruins those who listen. Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a workman who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth. Avoid godless chatter, because those who indulge in it will become more and more ungodly.

Adverse Happenings Often Occurring Suddenly and Unexpectedly

mmmm i love the taste of chocolate dream protein smoothie! at work my dad always has protein drinks or some kind of yummy protein bars. <>

im so gassy today.. BURPS not the gross stuff! i think ive recycled the flavor of everything ive had to eat today :) speaking of gas, guess what happened last night in the hot tub? we had girls night, typical cigarettes and cocktails with an endless flow of conversation. i was sitting on the edge of the tub with my pruney feet relaxing in the water and right in the middle of a detailed conversation about a boy im sure, i tooted. it wasn't a fart it was a toot. everyone heard it and kaitlin called me out on it by saying, "what was that?" i knew there was nothing i could do about because it was obviously very noticeable. i didn't even get flushed with embarrassment, i just said, "wow that has never happened to me before, im glad it happened in front of you guys!" then molly said, "that was a social disaster!"

We Called Her Grandma in Seattle

curt and i arrived in Seattle yesterday afternoon. mom and uncle john picked us up and they were so excited! not about us but about telling us that they found the most perfect plot for my grandma, right across from my grandpa jack :) they both kept saying, "we're the best!" and later John said, "you know that was God send." my mom was so relieved the plot was that close to him. she thought for sure grandma's would be next to the road or somewhere inconvenient were cars drove over as they turned the corner. but no it's perfect.
when we pulled to my grandma's little brick house, her brand new sage green car was just sitting in the driveway, i told myself, " get ready." i walked in and everything looked the same and smelled like it always does. the grandma smell is by far the best of all. it's not a nasty old people smell, like the poopy smell covered up with Chanel number 9. no it's way different, im sitting here now and i can't even describe it. it's not old people smell at all. it's like laundry, covergirl makeup, food, coffee, a hint of cigarettes still in the walls from when she was a smoker and dust from the backroom no one ever goes in. all i know is that when her door opened memories slapped me in the face as soon as the smell hit my nose. i walked all around her house. everything left just as she left it. her silky night gown moo moo (one of the many i would borrow and sleep in every time she came in town or i went to see her) is still sitting on her night stand next to the picture of grandpa jack when he was young and in the military and those fake diamond earrings im sure kayla talked her into buying. after looking around for a bit, i went to go pee and as i was sitting there taking care of my bodily functions i noticed my grandma's blow dryer still out and the paper she wrote on everyday to record her weight. im used to to not seeing her everyday because we live so far away but even now being at her house i feel like im waiting for her to come home and say, "Ah, baby! i love you so much!" i keep wanting to snuggle her and hold her rough little hands. today is the viewing and tomorrow is the funeral. i get to see her and touch her one last time. im not scared im just worried i won't be able to walk away.

What's kinda of weird is, now that I'm finished with school I have had no interest in getting on the Internet until now and right now it's just because im at work.
Tracy asked me to come in at nine so she could go see lorianne and i could make up some hours. so i text her back saying "nine it is!" im glad im here because not only am i making money but ive already given linda her present and she loved it and Nolen came in and gave linda and i necklaces :) now we are just doing busy work and chatting about the weekend, Christmas and our animals.
Ash gave me some white tea body splash and i smells sooo good! i must have sprayed tons on the left side of my sweatshirt because every time i turn my head to talk to Nolen i get a huge whiff of white tea splash! i love it