ooo im so hungry right now. my dad and i are going to lunch when tracy gets pack and im hoping we go to a restaurant that is not blowing the AC on full blast like we are at the store. maybe its my age or something but im the only one who works here that freezes all day long. there is no way i can win a democratic vote when it comes to voting on turning off the AC. plus i feel as though if linda has a strong enough hotflash she'd kill me before i even thought of turning the AC off.
well anyways life has been a lot less stressful the past few weeks with Dhizzle being gone. he came home last night and we talked with a bit of awkward tension. i think he enjoyed his time away from me too and im glad he did. im just a little nervous because i don't want the same old DK relationship we've been having. before he left he made it clear that he will never be my bf if that's what i want and only become my bf if i find someone new..well at least that's been my experience. if he doesn't truly want to be with me i can't keep ruining good relationships to go back to him. this is what i do..."bye perfectly sweet, attractive, trusting man who treats me well, im going to talk to the same boy who always breaks my heart and won't ever commit." im a real genius! oh well maybe now that he finally said no clear as day to being a bf i can move on. i ignored it but last night he still had the nerve to call me baby...really..baby ugh? whatever. it's amazing how that sweet word that once meant so much is now just another blah over used word that everyone and there mother use as a term of endearment. im over it already. my husband better have the cutest most loving pet name for me ever!